A few posts ago I wrote about how I was chosing to be optimistic and things we're good. Today I feel the exact opposite.
Maybe not totally pesimistic. Just totally and completly sad. I talked to my mom last night about a package (well a few that she is shipping) and I am excited and heartbroken at the same time. Is that possible? To be filled with every emotion possible. I miss home terribly, I miss my mom and am sad we won't be back in the States for Christmas.
It was just Carter and I this morning and I had a sad moment. I was sitting on the floor in tears. Along comes Carter. I asked him for a hug and told him I was just sad. He gave me the best hug and asked me why I was sad. I told him I missed grandma. He then replied, "Well, let's go get her." If only it were that easy.
I know this too will pass. I also know days like these are expected and part of the process. But when you are having one of these days, it kinda stinks. I am grateful for a loving three year old Carter who held my hand and consoled my tears this morning.
Mike created this little get up a few days ago during quiet time for Carter. He now requests it each night and will keep it on for hours. I think he looks like a shephard, he calls himself a robot. Watch out he's armed with self created Trio (a kind of block, like lego but so much cooler) gun. He's hunting bad guys.